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This is just a place for me to say what I'm feeling. This is my online diary and I don't expect any of you to like it or not...it's my life.

Permalink March 21, 2012
So here’s the back story behind this fish. I’ve been bruised and beaten in friendships (not physically) and I’m always the one basically being abused and then having to fix things. No one understands how I feel, but I think this fish does me justice.
We went to the beach two days over break and the second time my brother saw these gutted fish and had me take pictures.  Not only were these fish decapitated, gutted, having the rest of their bodies probably used bait, but their little heads were thrown over the side of a deck.  I felt horrible, but I realized that this is how I felt.
I was decapitated and cut off and thrown overboard. This feeling can’t go away and I’m left limp and emotionless. Everything about this is wrong and I can’t describe how my emotions actually are because you won’t know until you experience it. All I can say is abandoning people when their lives are being ripped apart isn’t fair. That isn’t humane and that’s not the way friendship works. No one should feel worthless and talking about people behind their backs doesn’t fix anything.  If you have a problem with someone, approach it with maturity and talk to them about it…don’t just skid around an important issue.  
You can’t leave a person in a horrible state. You can’t leave them with their hearts ripped from their bodies because no one has survived without their heart. Just like no fish has survived with out his body. 
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Permalink “Because there is nothing more beautiful than the way the ocean refuses to stop kissing the shoreline no matter how many times it’s sent away.” 
- Sarah Kay
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Permalink Heh haven’t done any of these things, but I’m pretty excited about the party this upcoming weekend.
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